~Rath-sama14

^__________________________^ Hi Peoples!!! I know this is my third journal in 3 days but i figured I needed this on record because I"M TRUELY HAPPY.

I've made myself notice this morning when getting dressed that by acting like the perfect child to my parent that they'd never had I wasn't really being myself.
I quit wearing skulls and most of my band t shirts i stopped putting my hair up in crazy or weird ways i even stoped putting on the little make up i used to that i liked metalic blue nailpolish. XD
And I remeber my Grandaddy when we would alway talk saying he's always proud of me no matter what because of who I am not who my parent want me to be.
and my Grandpa ( Other one) Has always said I was the rebel of the group and then i just kinda stoped.
And Yeah i did and i'm not happy with myself for stoping.
I always was told I was like my sister and I would hate it but now ilook at myself and i notice that i've been trying to be the anti-druggie finish highshcool less slutty verison of them.
Well #%$^ That i'm pulling out my old leather jackets and all my band tee sirts and I'm being myself again.
Am i going to change alot towards you guys HELL NO but i'm taking back pieces of me that some of you have never had a chance to see like the side that actually liked waking up to billly Idol and dancing to dancing to myself and putting my hair up and just getting ready for the day.
Like I did today and all of a sudden my grandmother comes in crying saying " It's good to have YOU back"

So basicly i'm just happy to be ME again i have the same personality but i'm showing more of it like the side that love to go around my house dancing and singing to billy idol XD
And the typpe that really misses her metalic blue nailpolish and occult books <.<;;;
I think their in the attic I'm going to go check so i leave you with Billy Idol everyone!!!

Oh yeah what really scary about me being this happy is I ahve my period!! XD Again <.<;;;
*Rebel yell plays*